"Be your self in your own way"

Saturday, August 28, 2010

i believe..!

~~Being someone 1st love maybe great, but to be their last is beyond perfect~~

I believe that the very purpose of life is to be happy. from the very core of our being, we desire contentment. in my own limited experience i have found the more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being. cultivating a close, warmhearted feeling for others automatically..why puts the mind at ease. it help remove whatever fears or insecurities we may have and give us the strenght to cope with any obstacles we encounter. it is the principle source of succes in life. since we are not solely materials creatures, it is a mistake to place all our hopes for happinesson external development alone...

~~My complements are only made to let you know that I am aware of the beautiful truth that is you~~

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Alone ?

My life is getting harder day by day...
and i, i don't know what to do...what to say...
and my mind is growing weak every step i take...
its uncontrolable...

while waiting for hours, i can only wait and be patient...
and i could only smile in the heart ..never mind, tomorrow is still there..

but, i'm trust i not
and i walk alone on my tired hp keeps playings tired song...
and all i wanna do is just go home..

McFly - all about you..!

It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)
It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you

Verse 1:
Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said you'd make my life worthwhile, it's all about you

And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you, yeah!

(Guitar solo)

Chorus 2:
And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you

It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)
It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

About heart again..!

hmm..Our body is free but our heart is in prison. to release our heart, we need a simply reverse the process which locked it up. first you begin to listen for messages from our heart. messages us may have been ignoring since childhood. next we must take the daring, risky step of expressing our heart in the outside world. as we learn to live by heart, every choice we make will become another way of telling our story. it is the way we were meant to exist. if we stop to listen, we’ll realize that our heart has been telling us so all along..

~~i love you and i miss you sygg~~

About love again..!

Sooner or later we begin to understand that love is more than verses on valentines and romance in the movies. we begin to know that love is here and now, real and true, the most important thing in our lives. for love is the creator of our favorite memories and the foundation of our fondest dreams. love is a promise that is always kept, a fortune that can never be spent, a seed that can flourish in even the most unlikely of places. and this radiance that never fades, this mysterious and magical joy, is the greatest treasure of all...

Saturday, August 21, 2010


the heart is stronger

than you think

it's like can go through


and even when you think

it can't it finds a way

to still push on. 

though, sometimes

you want to run away.

ain't got the patience

for the pain.

and if you don't believe it

look into your heart

the beat goes on...


love me, 
           without fear... 
trust me, 
           without questioning... 
need me, 
           without demanding... 
want me, 
           without restictions... 
accept me, 
           without change... 
desire me, 
           without inhibitions... 
for a love so free, 
           will never fly away.

No fear..!

The longer i live, the more i realize the impact of attitude on life. attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company, a church, a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous? Actually, who are you not to be? you are a child of God. your playing small not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others…

Friday, August 20, 2010

I love you..!

i love you for giving your heart to me
and trusting me with your pride
i love you for wanting me
and needing me by your side

i love you for the emotions
i never knew i had
i love you for making me smile
whenever i feel sad

i love you for your thoughts of me
where i'm always on your mind
i love you for finding that part of me
that i never thought i'd find

i love you for the way you are
and for how you make me feel
but most of all i love you
because i know you're mine for real

And now i realized that i step on the real earth...
and now i believed you really exist in my love story...
and i would like to remind you that i am a human being who does not have anything valuable unless you...
and i realized who it was me, and i do not have any advantage at all...its me..

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

About woman..!

hmm..just wanna update my blogger..nothing to do already..maybe this post just something about other topic that i thought...
in my opinion, a woman has strenght that's amazing..sometime she can handle trouble and carry heavy burdens she holds and opinion she smile when she feels like screaming, she sings when she feels like crying cries, when she happy and laughs when she's afraid. her love is unconditional there's only one thing wrong with her, she sometime forgets what she's worth...hmm..maybe kot..hehe..this is just my assessment..not you right..^^
generally, sometime if you truly love someone..then the only thing you want for them is to be happy, even its not with you..hisy..i hate this words but this is reality of the world..can't deny it...huh..!

Hope is the beginning of happiness, and the final stage of sorrow. where there is breath, there is hope. where there is hope, there is always a better tomorrow. when one door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us. we can not live unaffected by love, we are most alive when we find it, most devestated when we lose it, most empty when we give up, most inhumane when we betray it and most passionate when we persue it..
erm..sometime i do not believe myself because can be write as mind always/kept thinking something that is difficult to be translated..even with translation in any case may not be able to give real meaning in my mind. my mind is like this..but i'm sure, what i think is not something silly or nonsense..^^ let me be the one that know..
don’t worry so much about where you are right now…focus on where you want to be. the goal is to move forward on to bigger and better…be better than you used to be… only look back to see how far you’ve come, be who God intended you to be...~~

~always miss you and love you..
~saw you from a distance, it is sufficient for me..
~but my heart says NO..
~and my heart also says want to stare your face from close range...

Monday, August 16, 2010

Feel sad..!

"Bulan puasa" bagi penganut agama islam sudah pun menginjak hari yang ke-6 hari ini kalau saya tidak silap lar..kira seminggu sudah lar..apa yang membuatkan saya terdetik untuk 'share' story kali ini adalah kisah pelajar muslim yang berpuasa. mereka ini adalah sahabat saya juga, sahabat karib lar katakan...saya rasa tersentuh, dan rasa sedih yang teramat sangat apabila melihat keadaan mereka berbuka puasa setiap hari semenjak bermulanya hari puasa..bukan hanya masa berbuka/sungkai tapi masa sahur sebelum berpuasa pun..aduh.saya betul terasa apa yang mereka rasa..selalu terdetik di hati saya yang saya tidak sampai hati untuk membiarkan mereka(sahabat saya)berbuka/sahur dengan keadaan yang sedemikian rupa.kadang2 mereka berbuka hanya dengan meminum air panas(milo/nescafe),kadang2 juga makan maggi..lagi membuatkan saya rasa tersentuh dan ingin saja menangis masa sahur mereka tidak memakan apa2 makanan pun tapi hanya meneguk segelas air suam.. kawan2 saya nie mungkin tidak sedar segala perlakuan mereka semasa sahur tue saya perhatikan..tue bermaksud saya terbangun juga masa dorang mahu sahur tapi saya buat2 tidur..dalam hati hanya tuhan saja yang tahu..huu..dengan rasa prihatin, kesian, dan sayang kepada kawan saya dengan seikhlas hati, saya menghulurkan sedikit bantuan berbentuk makanan untuk mereka berbuka/sahur. ada lar dalam sehari dua tue saya belanja dorang..mereka bukannya tak ada duit/wang tapi mungkin sudah kehabisan. bukannya mereka tiada keinginan meminta wang dari parents tapi saya faham perasaan mereka..macam saya juga, tidak ingin susahkan parents..huuu..saya bukannya banyak duit pun..ada lar duit lebih sikit so apa salahnya kan tolong2 kawan masa dalam kesusahan...lagi pula saya ikhlas lakukan semua tue..saya tak berkira pun.saya yakin nilai persahabatan tue sangat penting...kadang2 saya bersendirian memikirkan nasib kawan2 termasuk saya juga kadang2...adui..secara jujur, masa menulis sekarang nie pun saya rasa macam air mata saya mahu menitis jaa..huu..saya betul2 tak dapatkan nafikan akan kesedihan saya ini. saya meluah dalam blog nie pun belum tahu lagi dapat meredhakan kesedihan saya nie..huu..what do you do if you were in my situation? do you laugh or feel sad like me when reading that what i share ? watever will feel what i feel if you all were in my place..!!! its okay my frens..kita sama2 berasal dari keluarga yang susah..asal memang dari kampung pun..selagi saya masih mampu saya akan bantu setakat yang termampu..sory my frens i can't help you two out of my ability.^^.sabar saja lar..kamu puasa kan sebulan jaa..kan sabar itu separuh dari iman..:) while the hands are still typing, so long as i feel very sad. so, better stop here lar..this is that i can share..tak kira jantina, semua insan ciptaannya mesti akan rasa apa itu erti sebuah kesedihan..

My Princess..!

~i like this song...mean so much to me..i can't if i've not seen you in a day my princess...although only a moment to meet with you, even noticed from a distance, it is sufficient for me..i want to touch your hair..i really want to scrutinize/gazing your face from close range..♥♥♥i love you so much♥♥♥...

jay jay - Permaisuriku

Tika renungi malamku
Bersama tirai perindu
Potret permaisuriku
Lenamu didakapanku
Inginku belai rambutmu
Saat malam malammu
Walau kembara ku meredah alam maya
Kan ku pertahan garis cinta kita
Ku hancur dikala tak bersama
Kau yang ku cinta
Impi rinduku disaat mesra
Oh kasih
Terbina rona kota bahgia
Permata dijiwa
Oh kernamu
Lautan duri ku tempuh
Demi sucinya cintaku
Tak ku hiraukan waktu
Ampunkan kesalahanku
Ku pinjam raut wajahmu
Hanya kau
yang kurindu..

This is my wish for you: comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, relationship to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, love to complete your life

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Morning Quotes..!

~ I want to tell something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be.  that's why people are so cynical about it... it really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for, and the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more…

~ I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but i never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry..

~ Love is like an orange.. sometimes it's so sweet, and sometimes it's so sour.. but no matter how it taste, people still love it.

~When people give you compliments, don’t think too much about it, tomorrow they may forget what they say..

~~~have a nice day~~~

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Sem 5..!

Yesterday was the start the new sem(sem 5) years three in my studies. the end of nex year will be ending my studies at diploma level. after that, what should i do? work? or continue study to take a degree ? but where? many question that arise in my mind right now. will i be able to finish my studies? i don't know..really dont know..huuu..anyway, hopefully i can graduate no matter what happens...! i am confident with my own ability, nothing impossible if i've effort. i realized that half of the way my life is not like i want..i should not be here, because my interests are far different from the courses i take now..huu..what can i do ? i have no interest in it first wants continue study. i regret no longer necessary, maybe God has determined my life like this..everything in our life he's know, and he is omniscient..pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that even a tiny amount of it is enough to ruin every i should be thankful to have given way,right?...thanks all must know...every heart has a pain, only the way of expressing it is different. fools hide it in eyes, while ..brilliant hide it in their smile...sometime, i feel like that..betul kan? jangan mahu tipu lar kalau kamu pun tidak pernah rasa seperti apa yang saya pernah rasa..mesti ianya sangat sakit kan..hmm..

actually, my interest is more to the art of literature or in other words that the world of art writing. i hope that my interest will continue to grow in me because this is my dreams for this. entah bila tercapai impian saya was easy right ..whatever lar..nway,  pray for me okay..when you pray for others, God listen to you and blesses them.. when you are happy and feel blessed, remember someone has prayed for you too..:)

love what you've got, remember what you had, learn from you mistake, but never regret, people change, things go wrong, but remember life goes, i never let go my love right now..some people say, if you lost love you lost life..what do you think? its true ? for me, yes...but sesetengah orang memikirkan ianya tidak..why? maybe they'll have a any reason..yes i agree too..dari seseorang saja tue macam mana mahu fikir kan..there's truth behind every "just kidding", curiosity behind every "just wondering", knowledge behind every "i don't care"..

Renny Azie...i really love you..! trust me..! love is sharing..! honest..! sincere..! all in one is "Our Love"
leave may change from green to gold, the sky from blue to grey, people change, places change and times keep to changing too but one thing will always stay the same..the love i feel for you..!

Friday, August 6, 2010


yeah..all of registration is completed yesterday(sem 5). i came early to go college kan..:) my princess, not yet completed. academic advisor her was not coming college. so, postpone to next week the same time, masa pendaftaran tue ada pula battle of the band..sempena minggu HEP kan..huu..kalau lar saya tahu, maybe i join the competition..but the problem i have not "geng" band..kawan2 saya yang lain belum balik dari cuti...missed again! huu..after register, i'm walk with my time..~TEKKEN~i've a long wait for this movie juga lar..^^

This is true ?

Apa yang anda rasakan betul, maka betul lar apa yang anda fikirkan itu. tidak susah kan jika anda percya terhadap diri anda sendiri. yang sebenarnya percaya lar diri sendiri sebelum percaya dengan orang lain. betul bukan ? mungkin kita tidak mampu melakukan segalanya tapi kita masih boleh melakukan sesuatu..kan?

~Do you know why god created gaps between fingers?so that someone who is very special to you comes and fills these gaps by holding your hands forever. confused right? in life we all have a unconffessable secret, an unreversable repentment, a unreachable dream, and a unforgettable love. Love is when you look into someone's eyes, and see everything you need. a wonderful saying "trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to remember someone you've never met". madman's mind..not sure..hahaa. Definition of love is very expensive, it was created by God to his servants. love is written in words but fail to see the face of love is the responsibility where there is loyalty and honesty in it. you know? 'I Trust You' is a better compliment than 'I Love You' because you may not always trust the person you love but you can always love the person you trust. so how?true right ? whatever. the worse situation in life is when you know someone doesn't understand something about their life that brings them pain, you know all about it and you know if you tell them everything will be clear, but as a result you will bring them more pain and pain for yourself and the connection with them might break, so you just keep the pain for yourself to protect them from it. everything happens for a reason. We may not like or understand it, but it does! So smile and have faith, and was meant to be this way.

~ Many people love the sun, and complain about the rain. but you can't make a rainbow without the two together. it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the heartache and fear of what life has. It's not about who's right or who's wrong, there more important things than that. That's why we have things like apologies and forgiveness. an apology may be a sign of weakness, but having the courage to go up to someone and say sorry is a strength. If you feel like no one cares about you, think again Look in the mirror, Because the person you see, needs you more than anyone else. its not enough too have a dream, unless you're willing to pursue it. its not enough to know whats right, unless you're strong enough to do it. its not enough to learn the truth, unless you learn to live it. its not enough to reach for love, unless you care enough to give it..

~ Forget the past, you can't change it, forget the future, you can't predict it, live for today. don't make someone a priority in your life, when you are only an option in theirs. Life becomes meaningful, only if we survive hurts of the past, we live fully the present, we view the future with hope & God is the center of our life. you are the past, you are the future, you are today, what really changes all time is your identity. don't believe that my knowledge of everything is what you think that I know. believe that my life time in this world is to learn from everything. it is more important.! GOD hears more than you say, GOD answers more than you ask and GOD gives more than you desire, realize it !

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness,
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people,
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry,
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never walking alone.

hmm..kadang-kadang kita tidak tahu apa yang kita lakukan itu adakah betul atau salah, tapi kita jangan lupa bahawa Tuhan selalu memerhatikan apa sahaja yang kita lakukan. God bless us..:)

Wednesday, August 4, 2010


Amazing how love changes lives. charm of love is learning, even when sick, we let it flow, let it run to see the quality itself through us, understanding, and appreciation of love through anger, frustration, hurt, and any negative sense, challenge is always there to find love. it's when you feel hurt, disappointed and sick, and every time it is to find a way to experience love, understand and accept love. in that sense, you can continue to live with new experiences, new people, new things, and a new life. love will indeed find the same light and laughter in your journey. love does not always provide what you need, or what you want, but will provide an adequate quality sense. mutual love, have a hope and only able to keep hope love is still alive...

~thanks princess,
*for accept me as you special
*because appreciate me
*i love you so much
*i can't promise anything to you, but only one that i can promise you, joy and happiness to you..:)

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Something about life..!

God i am sorry if i go astray if things i do go wrong and i lose my way, i know i'll find you in the darkest night, i'll feel your love,i'll see your guiding light. so if i go astray, if i should lose my way, in every prayer i'll say god please forgive me…god please forgive me for my many sins ease my troubled mind and place peace within guide my feet, so i can walk with you and if i hurt someone along the way, god please forgive me…
I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up. it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be. Life has no pause buttons, dreams have no expiry date, time has no holiday, so don't miss a single moment in your life, live it,don't just pass it ahead...happiness comes from the small things in life ,we all have so much to be thankful for each day. Look around take some time to enjoy our surroundings and the music from nature...God's creation is a beautiful gift for our eyes , ears and our soul...:)
Have you ever realized that when people say " you've changed" it's just because maybe you've stopped living you life. their way!!! At times when things happen in life they say that its your fault, even when it is not. They never once in there life admit that it was there fault, and so you had to pay the price for it but you learn from what they did to you and become strong. I know that one day someone will do the same to them and they will realise that what they have been doing is wrong. Always's the hardest times in life that teaches us the most valuble lessons, and forces us to realize what's really important. Sometimes you need to forget what you want and remember what you deserve. change needs a long time my friends.
Sometimes love just isn't enough. sometimes we have to let go of something that once meant the world to us. not because we want to but because we have to. but life will keep going with or without them. life doesn't stop for you,or for anyone else. life is life, It's hard,but there are those amazing moments that make you who you are. don't sit around crying when you let someone go. someday you'll be okay again. Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. There is always another chance for everything in life, but fact is that there is no chance for another 'life'..So enjoy every moment of your life...^^

L- love who you have in your life becasue one day they may not be there.
- imagine what you would be like if you lived a life without mates. 
F- Friends are there to laugh at you pick you up off the ground and slap ur face if needed. 
E- everyone shows their way of love and hope for you in all different ways. life is something that i have been stripped of but that doesn't stop me from trying my best from continuing on with it.

oO August..!

the 2nd day in batuk2 oO..why ?weather course..hisy..not me only but my best fren(saiful) same like me..batuk2..oho..but its okay..normal 4 me..bukan mnusia tue kalau tidak pandai sakit kan..haha...what story ar.?so many story actually but i'm lazy lar to menaip2 nie..just want to updating my blogg..boring juga kn..nothing to do..huuu..really hate it..cish..

Naa haa..tym exam nie..i am disappointed that not satisfied with my is very difficult question..shittt..saya pun tidak tahu apa yang saya jawab..hoho..daripada 7 soalan ada 3 soalan saja yg sy boleh jawab..3 soalan lagi men hentam saja..naa kotoh..siapa suru kasi kluar soalan yg bukan2..haha..1 soalan lagi sy TIDAK JAWAB sebab TIDAK CUKUP MASA...soalan tidak banyak tapi susah..bukan teda stdy ar..sebab subject tue bukan subject sembarangan mathematics bah tue..ingat kacang kar ..huuu..sudah lar stiap soalan 10 carrymark 30/40 saja..adui..saya yakin memang tidak boleh dapat A oO..B? mngkn 50 percent ya boleh dpt..C? 80percent i can get it..D? no..i dont want!!! sekurang2nya C lar bah sy dpt..A mmg mustahil..B harap2 lar..Amen..:) A pun boleh juga bah/lagi saya mahu..hahaaa...miracle ? nonsense!!!

saya p gereja with my fren yg stdy ums...after church, lunch at CP n lepas tue jalan2 buang masa...masa tue byk pula promosi barang..murah2 n ada diskaun lagi..tapi apa kan daya, keadaan kewangan tidak mengizinkan dan sy hanya mampu mencuci mata pd hal hatiku merayu2 ingin membeli beberapa barang..banyak barang/benda yg menarik perhatian sy masa tue..hahaaa..tapi sy tidak layan sangat juga bah keinginan hati saya nie..apa boleh buat..tunggu nex month lar..hua3x..pentingkan yg lebih penting kerana yg penting itu lebih penting daripada yg penting..^^

saya lambat bangun..dekat jam 12 baru bangun..(tengok lagi movie sampai jam 4 pagi ar)haha.. itu pun sy terbangun sebab si bonie call..bukan apa, sebab kami sudah berjanji  mahu p buat royalti pelajar dalam bentuk draft bank awal2..punya mahal..rm370..UTM kasi murah lar bah tue royalti..cekik darah oO..hahaaa..selepas tue, apa lagi..DOTA time memang tegila suda sama nie game..ceyh..watever!!! 

gila..jam brpa suda nie ?naa jam 2.30 pagi sudah..belum mengantuk nie..baru jaa tadi habis tengok movie..nanti2 continue lagi..banyak lagi movie yg belum saya tengok..relieved when it was no longer the test..huuu..tinggal tunggu result lagi..takut pula..adei..